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i want to hurt myself very badly

things are difficult and uncomfortable

I'm not finding work as easily as I thought I would

my closest friend doesnt listen much to what I say and has complaints about many things that I cant listen to at this time

another friend was recently distanced bc they awkwardly fetishised us as romantic among other things

I just dont feel like its doable, or manageable, or anything

I dont want to exist tbh

and I know this is temporary, but it really doesnt feel like it


out of hormones, just on T blockers, not feeling good or energetic or able